Time To Rest

If God is telling you to “slow down” or “rest” and you are a stubborn, “I can do it” kind of person, we are alike. I am getting my pride checked and learning a lesson in humility, AGAIN.

Confession: I’ve always been a go-go-go person and pushed my way through many illnesses, hospital visits, and hardships and then the effects of the pandemic really slowed me down in ways I never imagined. It was so hard to adjust until I was forced to, and only then, I experienced all the GOOD that came out of it. (I even wrote a book about it!)

I was careful to ease back into work, business, and life after learning those lessons and did okay for a while until those old habits and tendencies started to creep back in and I found myself slowly getting caught up in doing a lot again. Not as much as pre-pandemic so thought I was okay, but I guess still “too much” and God was calling me to rest.

So, when I stepped off the curb into a pothole and fell and sprained my right ankle, I almost sensed instantly that God was reminding me to stay humble and a gentle, “no Erin, you can’t do everything on your own.”

“Got it” I responded to God, thanked him it was minor, got crutches to help me get around instead of staying put and resting my ankle, and kept going! (Insert girl slapping emoji here). Then, I fell to the ground with crutches (twice) and bruised my finger making it difficult to type. But I kept going.

Two weeks later when I got clearance to put some weight on my right ankle, I went out again. And as I stepped to walk down the stairs, I fell again and the time heard a “crack!” I had been slow and careful, with nothing in my hands, no distractions, no phone, not talking to anyone, just grabbing the railing to walk down the stairs and then I found myself on my butt on the concrete steps alone, shedding a few tears while biting my lip from my pain. I would later find out I broke a bone in my left foot.

Now there’s a super clear message from God and a chance from Him again telling me to “rest” and to “slow down.”

And everyone who knows me really well, told me the same.

So here I am, resting my feet. Throwing myself even deeper into the Word, into prayer, and fervently seeking the lesson he is trying to teach me. To trust Him. To not stand on my strength, but on His. To slow down and give others a chance. To believe in the people around me and equip them to rise up and help carry the load. And to guard my pride.

And also maybe to write.

I know he’s called me to this blog, but I always had an excuse why I couldn’t keep up. Always too much to do and too many “Erin’s to run.” And now, he’s giving me a chance to rest, to catch up, and to tell you about these errands.

As many things feel like they have “returned to normal,” perhaps we all need to slow down, so that we can invite God to sit alongside us. :)